Thursday, May 28, 2009

10 years

Do you know what you were doing 10 years ago tonight? I do. Ten years ago I walked across a temporary stage in the middle of an outdoor football field in a small Texas town and accepted my high school diploma. I thought I was grown up. I had an acceptance letter to the college of my choice and all I had to do was make it through the summer and then come August I would pack up my car and head off to college to start my life.

The month of May has always been a month of new beginnings for me. May 2000 I finished my first year of college and moved in with my 2 best friends into our first apartment. May 2001 I moved out of that apartment, no longer friends with either girl, and into my very own apartment. May 2002 I studied abroad in Russia and faced my fears about studying in a foreign country with only a basic grasp of the language. May 2003 I accepted a proposal of marriage from my future husband whom I had known for a total of 4 1/2 months. May 2004 I married that man and we started our lives together. May 2005 we celebrated completing our first difficult year of marriage in Florida with my parents. May 2006 we purchased our first home and spent a week getting it ready to move into. May 2007 I lost my job of 3 1/2 years and had to start looking for a new one with a 4 month old baby at home. May 2008 was my first full month as a stay at home mom.

And here it is, May 2009. I am now the proud owner of a bachelor's degree, a homeowner, a wife, a mother of 2 boys and now I think I might actually be a grown up for real. I barely remember that girl from 10 years ago but I am proud of her and how far she has come.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Flying by...

It is amazing how fast the time passes when you have two small people entirely dependent on you for their survival. It makes things like blogging, eating, showering etc take a backseat. Just kidding on the showering. I make sure to find time for that. My life has become a serious exercise in proritizing lately. When I am not feeding, changing, refilling sippy cups, dressing, bathing, re-feeding, cleaning up, cooking, doing laundry etc I have to figure out what thing I want to do most with my free time. Most of the time eating or showering wins which means there is no time to blog. I can still read blogs while breastfeeding but my one handed typing sucks.

I am also really trying to enjoy the baby time this time around. Last time I kept wanting each stage to pass or get here but this time I am just trying to soak up the newborn-ness. This is hard when my two year old is constantly demanding my attention and trying to get into or on everything. He is driving me a little crazy with the whole not listening and getting into everything stage. This stage has been going on for a YEAR with no end in sight. Lucky for him that he is so cute.

His daddy took him fishing this weekend and it is moments like this that make me realize that the toddler stage won't last forever either. It all goes by so fast.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Banished to the attic

This weekend I finally got to clear out all the maternity clothes that have been hogging my closet space. When I had Bear I just moved them all to the back of the closet knowing that I would probably be pregnant again in the next 2 years. But today they are happily esconced in a Rubbermaid container ready for a trip up to the attic. Even though I don't plan on having more children you never know plus I hate to just get rid of them. If I don't use them again at least I can donate them to a friend whenever someone needs them.

It is so nice to see all my summer clothes hanging up at the front of my closet, organized and ready to wear. I can only fit in one pair of pre-pregnancy jeans but I have hope that I will be able to squeeze in the rest soon. I am only 4 pounds above my pre-pregnancy weight but my shape hasn't bounced quite back yet. Until then I have yoga pants and shorts I can wear. And luckily my feet are back to pre-pregnancy size too so I can wear my new sandals.

The only thing that worries me is my appetite. I am hungrier now than I have ever been in my life. All I want to do is eat. I hope the breastfeeding will help keep me from gaining back the weight. I thought pregnancy was supposed to make you want to eat for two but breastfeeding is a whole new level of hunger. It doesn't help that I have been perusing the Pioneer Woman's recipes again and I made Pasta alla Vodka last night. So yummy yet so fattening.