Ok, so I am watching American Idol again tonight. I know, I know I seriously need a new hobby. In watching all these people get rejected it made me think about how much harder it is to take rejection when your family is there. When something bad happens I usually hold it together fine until I pick up the phone and call my Mom. Then I typically dissolve into a hot sloppy mess. If I were ever to try out for something like that I know I could not have my family waiting on the other side of the door because I would fall apart knowing I have to face them.
They are wonderful and supportive don't get me wrong. I can handle rejection on my own but there is something about the perception that I am letting them down that I can't get past. I just can't handle something embarrassing or terrible happening in front of people I care about. I can be a complete wreck in front of strangers and laugh it off. Perhaps I am crazy but thats just how I am.